Into/Out of Me

I am young. I am white. I am heterosexual. I do not associate with any religion. I am not fat. I am not poor. I live in a first world country. I am educated. I have no physical disabilities. I thought I was untouchable.

 

I stated to notice just how close my veins are to the surface of my skin. I wondered why this was so; surely this is a major design fault, that access to the blood is so easy.

 

I thought I was an angel and I was falling and it was beautiful. 

I think I am burning. I think I am an inferno. My body is fraying. I am exhausted. My skin stings. My lungs collapsed beyond repair. My wounds ache. My membranes hold the messages of a humanity that gropes and strokes and caresses and pierces. My organs swallow mankind’s stares till they are drunk and bloated and then vomit into my veins. My nostrils are dry from breathing air that is borrowed and tastes like dust. There is no space between us.

I thought I was an angel and I was floating. I thought I was an angel and I was falling.

The first development of Into/Out of Me took place in september 2009 at Performance Space Sydney due to the support and friendship of the amazing Georgie.

Dirty Dancing

This short dance work was performed at Smith Galleries in July 2009

crafty stuff

This doll was made with my hair by my hands
sleeping beauty?

The sparkle, the top of the sky, the earth and me.

In january 2009 I cut my hair. Evan Dowling filmed it.

This is For You

It's easy to feel disillusioned with the world when dancing in your own home your waving arms come into contact with hard or even sharp objects.




This is For You was performed by Brigid Jackson at La Mama in May 2008.

Directed by Adena Jacobs. Sound by Kelly Ryall. Design by Maria Sirpis.

In Spite of the Skin

'This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh...'
'In their untrembling sleep

Did the tips of their tongues

Seek the bud of another taste

Which was mortal and sweating?'

(John Berger)

In Spite of the Skin was performed by Hannah Liddy, Kade Greenland, Gabriel Partington and Nikki Shiels and directed by Brigid Jackson in September 2007

Sleep Sound

'Bed becomes a forum in which struggles in a relationship are defused or intensified. Sex isn't about performance; it's about a certain kind of communication founded on trust and exposure and vulnerability that can't be expressed any other way.' (Nan Goldin, The ballard of sexual dependency.)
The first bed I ever shared with him was the single bed I had when I was a kid. He was squashed against the wall with his arm around my waist to stop me for falling out. I needed to go to the toilet but was too scared to leave the bed in case I couldn't fit back in. so I lay awake all night listening to him sleeping. I think I wt the bed.

sleep sound was performed at VCA in 2007, first as a solo by Brigid and then as a duet by Kade Greenland and Hannah Liddy.

Bridge Walk

Just after sunset in April 2007 Georgie carried me across the Swanson st bridge.

Peep

     A black man once asked me if I was and angel because I had the whitest skin he has ever seen, he said it as though he felt sorry for me.

Peep is a series of video works filmed inside a peep show where I learnt that my skin is reflective. 

The Palace of Wasted Footsteps

'Our degradation was entertainment; sadism was sexy; masochism was talent.' (June Havoc, marathon 33)
From August 29th, 1930 to April 1st, 1931 in a ballroom in in Chicago, Mike Ritof and Edith Boudreaux danced non-stop for 5,154 hours and 48 minutes. (Guinness World Records)
The Palace of Wasted Footsteps was performed by Brigid Jackson and John Brenard at Victoria University in November 2004.